Thursday, October 18, 2007

I feel dead...

Not really, but pretty close I think. I have just had one of those weeks of nothing but complete discouragement, self-doubt, under attack by nasty ole Satan, feeling unsure, inadequate, frustrated, "what am I doing" kind of week. That's encouraging isn't it for a blog post?! I have just felt worn out and mentally and physically tired. However, my spiritual tank has been really full. So...why has Satan had such a presence in my mind?? Maybe my tank wasn't as full as I thought.

I am in the Word and praying myself through it. I have even ventured into sharing a little bit of it with my "Peter, James, and John." Its hard to let too much out because of working in the church and are we allowed to vent or share our deepest concerns and pain?! That is tough.

Here is a picture from my own yard that so needs to be thrown out!



I'm glad that I can't be thrown out when I feel dead, tired or weary.

Lord, renew my strength, my focus, my passions and my desires to pursue you with all I have. Lord, help me to know, love, and serve you today. Guide me as I lead. Use me to encourage others. Make me a blessing to all that I meet today. And in everything, help me to honor you. In Jesus' Name, Amen!

May your day and weekend be filled with life and renewal if you too feel a little on the weary side.
Blessings friends~

13 comments:

jennyhope said...

no this is a good post because I feel really beat up! I am going to pray for you as i seek to take a nap!! thank you!! love ya

jennyhope said...

no this is a good post because I feel really beat up! I am going to pray for you as i seek to take a nap!! thank you!! love ya

Teri said...

Father God, you are in control. I thank you that you have you daughter Fran in your hands. I thank you that you love her and that you dance over her. GOd I ask now that you would move over her in power to deliver her from whatever is oppresing her. God I pray that you would show her strategically how you would have her move. I also pray that above all else, that she would feel you in a tangible way this day. In Jesus name, Amen.

connorcolesmom said...

Fran,
Oh my sweet friend!! I have been asking you to pray for me and here you are in need of my prayers!!
I will keep you in my prayers and pray through this for you.
Love you,
Kim

debra said...

praying for you girl!

Ang baylis said...

Dearest Fran,

I am so sorry you are feeling so discouraged right now! I am glad you feel you can share your honest feelings with your siestas here on the blog. I will keep you in my prayers. You aren't alone...remember that!

Did you get new wallpaper? Your blog is so pretty! I have been away for awhile so I hadn't noticed it! You have such good taste!

Keep your eyes toward Heaven, dear friend and how about putting on some good praise and worship music? It may just be what you need!
And... if I could, I would get you some gerber daisies! They are my favorite! Pretend I sent them to you and they are on your kitchen table! (I know, I am weird).
Much love,
Angie xoxoxoxo
p.s. Satan...stay away from my friend!!!!!!!

CrownLaidDown said...

Maybe because your spiritual tank is full, Satan finds you more of a threat. Mmm. I have felt that this week, and I expected it. So I have been turning up the praise. Praying for you Sister! Praying for your strength...and for much joy and praise to fill your weekend!
Love,
holly

Abby said...

sweet friend, i am praying for you!! ahh i wish i could hug your neck!!!

and it urks me that church is the one place most people feel like they can't say what is on their heart, because if anywhere, THAT should be the place to do it! if you ever need to vent about anything, you just email me and get it all out!

love you fran..praying Jesus will hold you tight

JMom said...

Thanks for delurking on my site...and here's to renewal! I am thankful for it every day!!!!

BethAnne said...

I hate that youn have had a bad week. Funny how satan knows how, where and when to attack. Thankfully when you have weeks like this, you have Jesus to turn to and heaven to look forward to. Can you imagine trying to get through tough times without your Jesus?
When I get depressed or feel 'beat up', I daydream about heaven. I sit and think about the rapture and how it might happen (any minute by the looks of things in the world). I love to daydream about seeing Jesus for the first time. I cant tell you the times I have gotten on my knees in front of my living room couch and I pretend that Jesus is sitting in front of me and I am laying my head in his lap and telling Him all my troubles. Seems like thoughts of heaven make everything better - it's kind of like a band-aid for depression and hurt.

Jackie said...

OH, I know that week...I had a day like that today, just posted about it. Praying lots of strength and peace for you!! love ya!

Profbaugh said...

Oh my dear Fran,

This is a time when "cyberspace" seems so inadequate. I wish I were there in person to give you a big ((((Hug)))).

Please know, my sweet Siesta that I've got your back in prayer. So just let the enemy try to continue his attack. You're being covered by a host of your blogging Siestas. . lifting your name up to the One who already knows your needs. May you feel His peace and feel your strength renewed.

Love ya,
~Cheryl

thouartloosed said...

Fran,
Isn't it just life that has us expounding words of wisdom one day and then the next, we are worn out? The Lord bless you and fill you today. Thank you for sharing the downs as well as the ups.
Kathy

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