I was and am so much like that horse.....

I sat in the middle of 100's tonight at a football stadium. I wasn't watching football. I sat and had God speak to my broken heart and assure me of His unfailing love to me.

How did He do this??

Through a beautiful 2 yr old colt and this unfamiliar trainer to the horse named Lew Sterrett.

Y'all....there is no way that I can begin to repeat the powerful message this man shared tonight.
I can tell you that we are exactly like that beautiful but wild buck that He trained.

The theme that spoke to me over and over again......TRUST.

This darling colt was just as happy as he could be in that big ole pen eating that yummy football field grass. He didn't ask for that guy....the "Horse Whisperer," to come into his life and start messing with him.

But he did. He came in and befriended this handsome colt And, it took time. Lots of it. It took more patience than I would ever have. IThis horse was not real happy with the fact that this stranger came in and started messing with his world. It took baby steps that built this trust. These steps, from the trainer, never showed frustration or a desire to give up on that colt. No matter what that colt did.....the trainer never got aggressive or forceful with this baby.

That colt would get mad and run off. He would pout. He would fight against whatever the trainer was trying to do with him. But.....

He began to trust that man. He began to go back to him. He began to trust him with every detail.

This colt had NEVER followed commands. This colt had NEVER had a blanket put on his back. This cold had NEVER had rope placed on him to teach him harnesses. This colt had NEVER been saddled. This colt had NEVER had a person ride him. This colt had NEVER been anything but a young horse completely untrained. His world was being rocked!!!

But...with the same kind of love and patience as our Heavenly Father gives us on an hourly basis, this wonderful, gentle man gave this untrained colt the proper instruction and love that it needed. Time and again.....regardless of the colts reaction or behavior.

I am full of all those emotions this colt had tonight.........

Fear, rebellion, distrust, selfishness, pride, arrogance, etc. etc.

I need to know that God is so much bigger than my mind can make Him. He will never leave this wild untamed child. I might need to kick and scream, get frustrated and be full of my own ways and desires.....but it won't last. I gotta turn back to my trainer. I need to let Him do His timely and perfect work in my life......even when it is scary, hurts, or seems completely ridiculous. I have to break my will before Him.

HE KNOWS WHAT HE'S DOING!

This horse went from broken to trained in a very short period of time. Mr. Sterrett did a beautiful job and by the end when he began to ride that colt......I was just in tears.

Lord, increase my trust in You. I do not trust You with all things and my heart is broken and hurts. Please give me a spirit of trust and complete love for you.....in every single life situation.

Our Father is simply perfect and a complete gentleman. He would never throw His heavenly arms up in the air when we go back to our own ways and our own desires. We can run. We can kick our back legs. But, our Father will never, ever, ever, never walk away from us.

He's in the business of patience. Just like Mr. Sterrett. And....it works.



Train me Lord. KEEP training this messed up girl.