Ok, so let's see.
Where was I?
Oh yeah...life was changing faster than fast after I arrived at the hospital.
I told you in part 1 that I don't really want to spend a lot of time on the details of that night because that's not my "it." But, I will share these snippets with you....The "it" is in the story.
Once Dr. M got taken to surgery and the reality of "it" all was hitting me, I saw some things so beautiful in the trauma of "it" all that I want to share.
I saw a mom tell her son in the middle of a packed ER with us all staring and crying...."God has a purpose for you. For YOU! Don't ever forget how much He loves you and He has a unique plan JUST FOR YOU!! Let's live every day in search of Him and that purpose. God's hand was on that gun and He protected you, your brother and your dad. Let's live on purpose FOR HIM!"
Wow. When have you told your kids something like that? And really meant it?
I saw a woman walk the road of terror and the unknown with complete confidence in Christ. When someone asked "what if he loses that leg she simply said....he has another one."
Oh, Lord....teach me to walk in that confidence and trust every.single.moment.of.the.day!!
I realized just how much I loved the people around me. That's what happens when you go through something big together....love has a deeper meaning. I don't want to go back to loving the "other way."
I take the dogs out every night between 9 and 10, but something was different now. I remember looking up at the stars one night and tears filling my eyes. "It" happened. I saw God in a whole new way. He is massive and huge in all His creation, but He is tender and loving and present in every little thing we do.
I heard a man tell the story of that evening and what happened in a split second and how he realized that God saved his life. He shared details of conversations with his family members. He shared how he cried out to Jesus in the ambulance. He spoke of Jesus to anyone that was within his reach.
I want to have that type of confidence. I want to speak of Jesus to anyone within my reach. I also don't want to wait until something serious happens. I learned right then and there that it was time to get serious with living this life He has given me intentionally.
There are so many more things I could share, but I want you to think about this small list and see what you can do differently as you go through the motions of the day.
And, just so you know.....After a few days in ICU, moved to the in house rehab unit of the hospital, receiving countless units of blood, and dealing with the daily ups and downs of being in a traumatic, life-threatening situation.....this amazing Doc was given a 2 hour pass to head over to his clinic.
And...I was able to catch a glimpse of that beauty.
And, "it" was more than my heart could take.
God saved this man. Clearly he is a miracle. God also used "it" to change me completely and I'm begging Him to keep me this way and not let my humanness take over and slip back to the old way.
Have a beautiful rest of the week! Praying for you all!
Hugs and blessings~
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Ok, so let's see.
posted by Fran at 12:11 PM